On being a big fraud.
Ever feel like you're just really bad at life and everyone else seems to have it all so together?
And the thin layer of 'together' that you've managed to pull off is just a veneer that is peeling at the edges and catching on things?
Until one day, something big happens and the whole sheet of veneer gets yanked off-with force-and you're exposed for the big fraud that you always felt you were (deep down) anyway?
No? It's just me? Okay-carry on then. I'll just sit over here in the corner and snivel all by myself and pray for some new veneer. And/or an invisibility cloak.
And the thin layer of 'together' that you've managed to pull off is just a veneer that is peeling at the edges and catching on things?
Until one day, something big happens and the whole sheet of veneer gets yanked off-with force-and you're exposed for the big fraud that you always felt you were (deep down) anyway?
No? It's just me? Okay-carry on then. I'll just sit over here in the corner and snivel all by myself and pray for some new veneer. And/or an invisibility cloak.
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posted by canadian sadie at
8:20 am
6 Comments:
It's not just you. The fun part is trying to continue on with life as usual after the veneer has been ripped off and now you're a trembling weepy mess but you can't let anyone see it. It'll take a while for the veneer to grow back, but it will eventually return.
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Anonymous, At
Mon Jun 01, 09:08:00 am
I don't think most other people have it together, all serene & swanlike - they're paddling like fuck underneath like the rest of us :).
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Mephitis, At
Mon Jun 01, 09:11:00 am
There's a name for that psychological condition and it's called Imposter Syndrome. It's more common than you might think, especially in academic circles. The problem is that expectations are set so high for people that some feel like they can't keep up and are just trying the best they can, when in fact, there is little basis for the self-criticism since they are actually doing a decent job. I don't know what happened that peeled your veneer away. Hopefully, by now, which is two weeks later, you have got yourself back on track.
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Sean Hully, At
Mon Jun 15, 06:51:00 pm
I get that! - I wrote a post about "faking it" a while ago - check it out - http://www.misterzig.com/2009/04/faking-it_22.html
so, no - you are not alone here :)
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mr zig, At
Tue Jun 16, 11:35:00 am
It happens to all of us. At least, until we wise up and learn that we are not perfect and it's ok. Then we act like we are human and the world accepts that we don't know everything or how to get it all done!
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betty-NZ, At
Sun Jun 28, 02:58:00 am
Pretty much everyone feels like that; we're all just bumbling through. Keep your chin up. x
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badgerdaddy, At
Wed Jul 15, 11:10:00 am
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